The advice my daughter just gave 1
year ago:
“Be
yourself, be kind, and don't be afraid to try new things!”
So I was Myself, I was Kind, and I
did everything I thought was Scary!!!
This lead to the most Incredible High's and the Most
Devastating Low's. Through the Up’s & Down’s I learned some
of the most amazing lessons that are Priceless.
I have learned that even some of the most important people
in your life are not all that you have expected them to be. But reminiscing on
the old times is not always a bad thing. Even though it is devastating to look
back and remember they way things use to be and know that they will never be
that way again, it helps to remind you how happy it made you feel at that time
and to know that you…on your own….will be that happy again.
“Holding on to memories sometimes is the only thing we can do, because
it’s the memories that will never change even when the people do.”
Forgive Them Even if They are NOT Sorry
You have to forgive people in order to clear them out of
your life. Holding a grudge is the Blackness inside all of us. So here is what
I forgive:
Blues- I forgive you for not being the person I thought you
were. It is not your fault I thought so highly of you and that you could not
live up to my expectations. It is not your fault that you were not good enough,
you did the best you could, I know that. I am sorry that it wasn’t good enough.
You never promised me that you would be who I though you were, you promised me
that you would be YOURSELF. You held up your end of the bargain, because you
were You, I’m sorry that it wasn’t good enough for Me.
“Not only do I not Love you but I don’t Hate you Anymore!”
I Forgive You!
Let go of the Promises made by people that are only looking out for
Themselves.
This is the hardest thing ever, because you swore that
nothing would ever come between your friendship, and you both though your
friendship could withstand anything. As much as it breaks my heart to not give
what I think someone deserves, not everyone deserves what you have to give.
Silence is Deceiving
The silence does not mean that I don’t care, but that I sill
care too much. Taking the time that you need is probably the biggest favor you
can do for yourself. Walk away Gracefully
and keep your Dignity. Trying to
fight through the pain will only tear you further apart. You never know if/when
happenstance can put you back in each
others lives. Even when you know you’ll never want it again…….don’t ruin it.
Anger, will ruin the good memories.
Know you Worth
Don’t feel sad over someone who gave up on you, feel sorry
for them because they gave up on someone who never would have given up on them.
Always give your all and if it is not wanted or respected then don’t waste your
time. Someone, somewhere dreams everyday of having what you will give. Never
let an ungrateful person ruin who you are and what your about.
People Change
Let people be who they are. It is not fair to hold on to
what or who they were if they no longer want to be that person. I had a friend
this last year that was, what I though to be the most amazing person in the
world. For that season of our Friendship I couldn’t have asked for anything more.
We laughed, we cried, we called each other out, we drank wine/drank beer,
watched sports, watched movies, talked every day; we were friends, best
friends. We brought each other happiness through all of our pain; we had the
most amazing/special friendship either of us had ever experienced. I prayed I
would have this person in my life forever. After I lost my friend to an out of
state move, he no longer was everything he used to be, nor was I. This was to
be expected but NEVER, in a million years, did we foresee the challenge that
our friendship was about to endure. We fought like hell to try to make it
through, but unfortunately, we didn’t have a chance. He no longer wanted to be
the person that meant so much to me. I
no longer could support the things he wanted. Through the pain and the tears…..I
had to let him change, and I had to let him go.
“The person you were, was my friend. The person you have become, is a
complete stranger that I want nothing to do with.”
One thing I have learned is to not let this discredit or
take away from the person they were or what they did for you when they were
exactly what you needed. Needs and wants will always change, and that’s ok.
Being Right is not Winning
It is not about being right or wrong. Being wrong about
someone can be the one of the best things that can happen to you. Being right
about something can be one of the most devastating things you will ever
experience. It is about Forgiving and
Moving on when the time is right.
What Kind of Gone
There’s gone for good, and there’s good and gone, and there’s
gone with a LONG before it. After this
last year, I don’t know how much more clearer I could be. I am not cooling down
nor coming around, we will never be friends, oh and I ain’t coming back! I know
you never thought what you’re thinking now…..It’s the kind of gone that says
you had your chance and I’m not coming back. Yes, I’m gone for the rest
of your dog gone life, so probably a Whiskey night.
So…….
2013
Look out!
I am another year older and another year wiser.
The intuitive
mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created
a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift. ~Albert Einstein
I Love You Baby
Girl……Forever & Ever!
