Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Another Season of My Life Has Begun ~ Embrace The Change

"No one is in control of your happiness but you;
therefore, you have the power to change anything
about yourself or your life that you want to change."
- Barbara De Angelis
Through the years of ups and downs, screeching halts, and U turns, I have experienced in my life, its time again! I have officially closed the last chapter of my life and I am so anxious to open the next one. Life is never what you expect of it nor what you were ever originally hoping for. One thing I can say without a doubt is that life is what you make of it. I choose not to ever regret the decisions that I have made nor the things I have done. Without every step I have taken in my life (right or wrong), I would not be where I am today! When I reflect back on my life and the places that I have been, I have no choice but to be thankful for where I am now. Through failed relationships, single parenting (and co-parenting), old/new adventures, and new surroundings, I have truly learned so much about myself!

Embracing The Change

Nothing ever stays the same, which is what I love about my life! I live for the adventure of the change and the excitement of walking into the unknown not having a clue of what is to come. Maybe that is the thrill seeker in me, or faith in my heart, but I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. I am always so amazed at the doors that open after the closing of another, and how the rest of my life is affected by it. There are times that I am truly taken back at the people in my life that just come out of nowhere when I need them the most, especially those that have no idea the Reason they were put in my life, and what they have done for me. Some may never know, but I wish I will have the opportunity to tell them! ~List Item: Tell people what they mean to me.
Each person is in your life for a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime.
 
Cheers, To Our New Beginning!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Welcome to Being a Grown Up ~ Get Over Yourself

Excuses That Will Make You Loose Your Shit!

Man must cease attributing his problems to his environment, and learn again to exercise his will - this is personal responsibility. ~Albert Schweitzer
Excuse: Not trying to take away from what I did, because I know it was wrong: but I did it because I can't always talk to you.
This is what I wanted to say: Oh, well that makes perfect sense now, because not being able to talk to your spouse and adultery typically go hand in hand!

Excuse: I know I messed up, but you owe it to me to give me another chance.
This is what I wanted to say: WHAT!!! Sorry to break it to you, pal, but I don't owe you shit!! Especially because this was your "another" chance!! Go F yourself!!

Excuse: We can not be friends anymore because I can not sit here and watch you let him get away with what he did, I didn't realize how much this would affect me.
This is what I wanted to say: Oh, I'm sorry my divorce is affecting you so much. Please tell me what you think he got away with?!? I'm sorry that you can't handle the fact that I can act like a grown up and don't find in necessary to be a raging B****!

Excuse: It seems to me that you are doing everything in your power to keep me from having a relationship with my daughter.
This is what I wanted to say: YES, that is exactly what is happening here, because we have been in court for the past 5 months trying to alter your visitation that you ARE NOT EVEN UTILIZING!!! Here is a thought why don't you show up to the visitation that you have!! ~GDA 

Excuse: I realized that it was just the excitement I felt knowing I wasn't suppose to do it. I think it is a problem for me and I need to deal with it.
This is what I wanted to say: YOU THINK!!!! Hello, McFly......anyone home up there?!?!?

Excuse: I feel like you don't respect me and appreciate me and that is no reason for what I did its just some of the reasons why I feel I have to go talk to other people.
This is what I wanted to say:  WOW....Lets take a step back! If "talking" was all that you did then we wouldn't be having this conversation over divorce papers. RIGHT? Oh and please tell me again that I just need to trust you......YAH cuz that has worked out so well, thus far!!!!

Excuse: I don't think you should raise my rent because I'm a single mom.
This is what I wanted to say: Well, me too but I still manage to make it happen. Here is a thought: MAYBE ITS TIME TO GET A REAL JOB!

Excuse: I can only pay some of my rent because paying $200 in late fees the last month really inconvenienced my family.
This is what I wanted to say: Well was your rent late the last 2 months? YES! Well how is that my issue......wait I did say that, get over yourself!!

Excuse: Well I'm sorry, I just didn't budget for rent this month.
This is what I wanted to say: You have been on state assistance for the past 5 months, how the hell did you not budget for rent.

Excuse: I don't think it is fair that you increase my rent because we are trying to start a family.
This is what I wanted to say: If $40 a month is really going to break you, MAYBE ITS NOT A GOOD TIME TO START A FAMILY!!!

Excuse: Well I don't think that you should charge me a late fee because I meant to bring my rent in on time.
This is what I wanted to say: REALLY!!!! What world are you living in? Because it sounds really nice!

Excuse: Sorry my rent is a little short, it's been really tight because of the Holiday.
This is what I wanted to say: Holiday or not, shouldn't housing be paid first?!?

Taking the high road is not always easy nor fun, but here's the deal, at least I can fall asleep every night knowing that I did the right thing.